Heee hindi ako pedo no. It prefer mature people.

What I actually realized is that I have been in denial for sooooo long that it would be very difficult for to live that kind of life style that wanted. Sometime I feel that at my age it too late for me to practice it. I also suspect that I am a homophobic homosexual. Its alright to be gay but its not alright to be sexual about it. Confusing di ba?

Then I did not expect that the business that I manage to venture into will take up so much of my time. I have to kee up with the very high of standard of living here so I have no choice but to realy work soooooooo hard. Wala na akong panahon mag landi or go into a relatioship or really figure out what to do with my sexuality. That is why I I feel it would be better off in Philippines becuase would have more time for other areas of life.

Its not all minuses though there are some good things and even great things that came out of that decision that I made more than 5 years ago. As a matter of fact the pluses far outweighs the minuses.

The very issue that made me escape the Philippines may not have been resolve but I am more happier and fulfilled here.

All im a saying it that resolution of your personal issue is not dependent on your location. It s all within you!

That is why I believe, what ever issues Laurganism have, it would be better to personally resolve it rather than escape from it. I dont belive all his issue will be resolve by getting out of the coutry. Kasi yung mga complains nya about the country , culture and people may be worst on the place that he wanted to escape to. And definitely will not heal his angst or whatever negatives feeling he have.

Ito secret, lighten up.

L will be very surprised as soon as he landed here that the same issue that he is trying to avoid in the Philippines.

When I first landed in California, It was so cool and verything was so smoooth. But that was becuase it was all facilated by Intel Corp who sent me to to their research and Development Plant in Folsom.

But when I decided to resign from the company and come To New York City by my own. It was entirely a different story. Susme pag baba na pag baba ko pa lang sa JFK eh sangkatutak na warning sign about taking a cab. Reminds me so much about the taxi drivers in Manila.

I escaped Manila because I feel I m not free enough to live the lifestyle that I wanted to live. Kumbaga Im sick and tired of living in the closet. So so I came here para mag ladlad. Six year after that its still the same issue that is confronting me. I still cannot get my self into a relationship that I wanted and even worst Im still a ” virgin until now he he he he…. Now Im I belive I would be better off in Manila. Sexually that is.;)

I was strucked by L thoughts na ayaw pakilaaman sya….Unang una sa smula makikitira talaga muna sya sa kamg-anak o kaibigan . So hindi talaga mawawala yung pakialamn sya. Unless he is that super rich and he can afford to buy himself a house and pay any of the servicess that he needed. But I doubt if he really rich!

Dirty Politics? Corruption? Traffic? yeah right!

Talking from experience, I was married to a scion of a wealthy Caucasian family from Boston. The father was a Harvard grad- pathologist and a head of a department in a big hospital in SF before he retired and the mother who died this May while I was away, was a businesswoman who owned an art gallery. The son has a trust fund.

It was the parents who liked me very much. The father fell in love with Filipinos, having been in the Philippines and having worked with Filipino nurses in the hospital. His brother was a survivor of Death March.

The doctor/sister was a bitch. The lawyer sister was a darling but the family friends were polite bigots.

When I was introduced to my husband’s professor in his masteral, the latter ignored me as if he didn’t see me.

My husband noticed that so he started talking about stuff engaging me to join the conversation. The topics were about economy, politics and culture.

Then the professor had a hard time working in his computer. I helped him trouble shoot. And God, he spoke to me. Allelujah.

I can enumerate all other stuff and basically my only competitive edge over those women who were after my husband’s trust fund is that I have post graduate degrees.

So why I divorced? It is all culture thing and other stuff. Fidelity issue is not a monopoly of Filipino men. In-laws “thangs” are a universal phenomenon but i was just lucky with mine.

My sister is into early relationship with a man from a financially well-off family in NY. In the meet-the-parents/sibling things, financial matters came into discussion. That is how it is since marriage may tie one spouse to a liability of the other. Even in tax matters. She did not hear yet about prenups, postnups and segregation of non-community properties.

Ow, marriage in the working class is different. They live-in, they decide to marry, they decide if they want to have children, they divorce and settle for alimony or child support.

Another truth that L may find out is that the diploma in prestigious universities such as UP, Ateneo, won’t matter when she applies for a job. What they will be looking for
is local experience and a certificate from universities here in the US that also includes priorities to Harvard, Stanton and UC grads over community colleges’.

What FAO states: “In the case of the Philippines, FAO said its projection of a possible shortfall in food supply this year was based on the losses caused by successive typhoons that battered the country especially during the last quarter of 2006.”